Tears Roll down my face poem

"Tears roll down my face as I look at life everyday. As I see who I come by and who sees me a different way. When I look at myself in the mirror I see some one else
When people look at me they say wow-I feel so alone at times when I need someone
Then people just look at me and say I'm sorry hun; I look at someone I love deep into their eyes and then when they say they don't love me I sit there and cry.
When people tell me I am beautiful I don't see it; I see someone else sitting in an empty pit basically-I feel so alone all the time, even when someone is standing by my side. Now why I feel this way I can't explain...you'd think it would be clear as day
yet people think I smile and laugh and am so happy. When tears roll down my face I am no longer able to feel my breath as it leaves my body I ache with pain inside. Yet to this day all I do is pray you'll see what's underneath... and all that God sees in me.
People see someone else, and I sit there and cry when I have no one to hold, no one there to give me a hug or to say, I love you for who you are, when I am so cold
When I sit in the dark and tears roll down my face-I feel like I am a big disgrace
Like people hate me even if they say they are my friends...Just when I think I have come to an end I'm praying that someones their to pick my head back up again. I feel alone and feel insane; I feel the tears roll down my face-When no one is there to wipe them away...I feel like crashing in the rain....People say oh you look so pretty
When all I say is thank you then turn around and say if you only knew what the ones closest say instead. I try and try to change my life; but nothing happens even with a knife or as I punch the walls it's like all I can do is fall. No one will say to me, I love you will you marry me and I will for ever be alone ---- when the tears roll down my face." Truly Ms. Toni (M a r s a l i a) MY words My Poem
I will be alone forever